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Dec. 4th, 2012 | 10:09 am

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Jan. 25th, 2012 | 11:48 pm

I had this coming.

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Nov. 27th, 2011 | 12:05 am

I hate everyone and everything and I don't want any of you stupid fucking girls Fuck all of you.

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Sep. 29th, 2011 | 01:48 pm

*deep breath* I dont even know where to start. I'm not in love with her, I mean I guess I could let this go if I had to. She's my best friend, she's the coolest fucking person I've ever met. I just love being around her. I knew this shit would happen, I knew I would let my feelings get in the way of things and now all I want to do is kiss her. I don't even know if I tried my hardest if it would work, because I don't want to try my hardest. I don't want to change the course of anything at all in mine or her's lives. I want something easy and comfortable that just happens to fucking happen and when it does it's great. I haven't cried in a long time, I don't think I even know how to anymore. All of the music that used to make me sad- just doesn't anymore. No songs remind me of anything I want to cry over, no thoughts bring back a time in my life that I missed. But I digress. This has never happened to me before. I've never been interested in a girl that wasn't interested in me. (Much less a girl with a boyfriend). Oh fucking well. This is perfect anyways I guess. She sleeps by me almost every night, I see her just about every single day and we have a ton of fun together without any actual committment and at the same time she's my best friend. This is exactly what I wanted, right? Just as long as shes not using me. And it's all peachy until I know she's with her boyfriend. BLAH. Why am I ranting? I dunno, I'm bored at my moms house and there is no baby to play with me. Tonight I will be getting absolutely plastered and we'll see how I feel after that. G'day.

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Michelle,

Aug. 14th, 2011 | 10:57 am

I love you. I love you more than words could ever describe. No, it wasn't love at first sight, and yes it took me awhile to come around, but I fell harder for you than anyone before in my life. This past year that we have been broken up has been.. difficult. I know we've drifted apart at times and I know it feels like we will never get back to where we were.

All I want is to just being with you. Even if we're just sitting in your car for a few hours, even if we're not doing anything at all. I always want to be near you. You are without a doubt in my mind, the love of my life. You have every quality I could ever ask for in a partner and you are an amazing person. There are times when our fights get out of control, but I know I don't fight with anyone else like that for a reason: and it's because I care so much. I wish I had more time to write this but you are on your way to my house right now.

Just know that there is no greater feeling than love. And I know that I don't ever want to lose that feeling, and I don't ever want to lose you. I love you.

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teganplease

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Jul. 23rd, 2011 | 03:04 am

I can't keep doing this.

I have to let myself be happy somehow.

And I can't do that.

With you.






Please, just let me let you go.

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sunlight, sunshine

Jul. 17th, 2011 | 04:00 am

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A pessimistically optimistic update.

Oct. 26th, 2010 | 03:05 am

I feel like I'm a good person, at least in a relationship I am. Yes, I've cheated, Yes I lie sometimes, and I lose my temper more often than I should. I know I've done things that aren't right, I know I've made mistakes in my past and sometimes still do. I know I could be better looking, I could take more time to get ready than I do. I could spend money on things to improve my life as opposed to cigarettes that don't. I could drink more socially and make a lot more friends. I could flirt with every girl until I find one that is actually interested in me as well. My hair is always messy, my clothes are usually ones I just find laying around, I've gotten chubby, and I don't wear make-up.

But I don't get why I'm not enough for anyone. Yes, I just listed 5000 faults I have, but I do care. I can give more love than anyone I know. I can devote myself to someone better than anyone in the entire world. I CAN be faithful, I can tell the truth, I can put all of my trust into someone, and I am filled with hope. I won't ever let you fall, or ever let you think for a second that you're anything less than beautiful. I will hold you every night if it helps you fall asleep easier. I will kiss you every time I see you and a million times in-between. I will drive if you're too tired, rub your back if you can't sleep, make you dinner if you're hungry, buy you cigarettes if you're stressed (or broke for that matter), I will introduce you to my family because I know they'll love you because they are some of the nicest people you'll ever meet. I will draw you stupid pictures if they will make you smile or laugh. I can give a girl all of the love I have to offer and bend and break my own heart to give her even more. Falling in love is something that I want, something that I need. I don't want to fuck around my whole life jumping from girl to girl, and I don't just want to kiss you and hug you without knowing you're mine.

So, at this moment I'm realizing that my life isn't all I thought it was. I can carry on without a girl, I can wait until I find someone that makes me heart jump and my stomach drop, and I will give HER everything I have to offer. But as for you, if you can't take me how I am, then unfortunately you have lost me. Maybe accepting that this is just my childhood, though I'm 18. I will love, and I will lose. If i can wrap my head around the fact that MAYBE I am just.. not the girl for you. Maybe this isn't the one I'm supposed to end up with, maybe I'll fall 10 times harder for someone else. Someone who wants me, now and for the long run, not when it's convenient or for two days just so she can change her mind.






And my heart, it don't beat, it don't beat the way it used to, and my eyes, they don't see you no more. And my lips, they don't kiss, they don't kiss the way they used to and my eyes don't recognize you at all.

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teganplease

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Oct. 2nd, 2010 | 02:37 pm

Everything in the world could be going wrong.













You help me see through the storm, and I will never let you go.

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last post.

Sep. 14th, 2010 | 03:20 am

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i hope you find found what you're looking for

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